I AM NOT YOUR FUCKING MAID.

Sekian.

Yeah, it’s been decided. I’m too childish to admit it. Just because i had a probs and then i tweet about it, doesn’t make any change for people around me. After the long time and uncertain feeling of mine; I’m going to re-conciliating with what happened to me. No more sad days, just happy days and hardworks. Ciao :)

Hello everybody. I didn’t even notice, I had tumblr. Anyway, I just want to talk heart-to-heart with what goes on with me and everybody that comes within. Yeah, something(s) is/are better left unsaid, but I just want to talk about it with somebody, and I know that, this would be great.

Tests are coming, and everything’s just shape like pyramid. Conical. And than I got the worst score of any subjects I have been. I got 20. I’m so fool. I’m such an idiot. And then there will be 0 on Physics. I just bad. And I am not in the mood for something like those.

I lose my stress to every organization I belong to. So that I’m not going to be remembered what just happened. And then things are coming. I’m thinking that no matter how hard I’ve tried, it’ll be a “big-number-of-zero”. Hmm, what’s that even mean? What are you think you could ridicule me? Yeah, it’s “a big place and a big something-something” and not less yet more, someone.

Have you heard about a catchphrase that sound:
“I wish you could drink your words, and taste how bitter they are.”, well that was fit for you. You in here isn’t just for one person. And I mean for lots of people. Actually, I am a straight forward person. If you don’t like me, why don’t you say to me in person? I’ll be more flattered to hear what’s your opinion, rather than talking backs and exactly everyone’s opinion.

I easily emotional. Mentally and effected physically. I guess bunch of people has talked stuff about me behind my back. It hurts not just a little. I’ve been try to understand and they were just pushing me and pissing me off? What’s your background? What’s your motives? What’s your nature that comes and “pull-those-thin-lines” when you know it’s about to “bull-and-explode”?

I want to be frontal. I can’t, I just can’t. Cause internet has everything. Even spyware or even stalkers and observers. All I wanna say is you’re higher than me. And you have more power than everyone. But that doesn’t mean you’re better after judging another person. Are you that kinds of perfect? Are you perfect? You don’t. You really don’t. In my opinion. Okay, let’s turn around and see the fact.

What the hell am I doing?

What’s exactly am I doing? Does it disturbs you? Does it makes you happy? Screw you. I wish you could understand. I know you’ll not. You are THIS kinda annoying and will THIS kinda annoying.

Did you know, why I join it? Because I don’t want to be an outcast. I don’t want to be the underestimated one. Well I guess it was wrong. I am still the underestimate one.